Wednesday, April 07, 2010


Not My First Time Here:
Okay, so the truth is I've had this blog named for about 3 years but to actually post something requires that first step and I'm not really all about committing to that. But it's time to fall off the cliff already. The soapbox broke and I must rant from somewhere. I choose here...for now. I may run to a dark corner later and wallow in my insecurities from there. You will know that when you see it too.
From all the blogs I've read, the first post usually reads like a mission statement of sorts--why the name? what is the blog actually supposed to be about (supposed is a key word)? et cetera .....yeah, I don't know.
I suppose I picked the name because I wear a lot of hats and baker/pastry chef is one of them on occassion....along with Mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend, taxpayer, citizen, carbon life form. And some days, I am a kick-ass chef. Other days, I paint or garden or read trashy fiction. But I have to be doing something with my hands and I think maybe I'll start keeping tract of those things.....hell, I might even tell someone I'm writing this blog....no,no, probably not. So, instead of internalizing my anxiety and moving furniture in my head, I'm going to lay it out here and see if I reach some momentous epiphany that changes my life, makes me saner, makes me more crazy, makes me better, feeds my demons (and I don't mean my children).

5 comments:

Principalk said...

Yeahh!!!! You have a blog!!!! This will be fun!

Meredith said...

so you're not bipolar? and bipolar in your case has nothing to do with the mental illness? Just curious.

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Mrs. V said...

Meredith, thanks for your question. I typed up a whole answer and then failed to edit my spelling so I'm trying again....
I answer this question a little more fully later in my blog but, in short, no, I'm not bipolar. That said, I also hope that no one thinks that I take that particular condition lightly or in any way mean to poke fun or detract from the seriousness of the condition. As someone who has an anxiety disorder, I can at least relate to society's fear of all things "different from the norm."

That said, I tend to believe that it's unnecessary to isolate terminology from our lexicon because it originally referred to only one thing. I find that limiting to the nature of language...and also, how taboos are formed because then their usage becomes a target for those who wish to use terms negatively.In other words, to isolate a group with language leaves them as open targets for the ignorant who wish to belittle. I have no intent to cause a negative connotation by using the term "bipolar." What I wish to convey is that I have a very dualistic nature when it comes to food and cooking. I have been known to spend literally days in a kitchen working and creating with little thought for anything else. The antithesis of those moments are the days I can barely motivate myself to put together a bowl of cereal.
This blog is as much a place for me to grow into a better person as it is for me to hopefully instruct others who wish to grow into better bakers/cooks/food-preparers for their families. Regardless of how a person finds my blog, I only wish for them to walk away with the understanding that I want to help in the only capacities that I happen to possess.
I hope this helps. I hope I explained myself more properly....if it seems a bit garbled, please know it's because Thing 1 and Thing 2 were literally having a food fight at the table while I was trying to type and my train of thought kept getting derailed....

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