Every once in a while I feel the need to use this blog as my personal confessional. When I started blogging, I thought I might fall into the habit of sharing more about my feelings then food. Not so, but I don't regret it. I enjoy testing recipes and showing you what is going on in my home day to day.
But you have to understand that I'm thinking the whole time about how it all plays a part in my life and where I'm going with this. I'm thinking about how I can feed the kids nutritiously and still save whatever pennies I can. I'm trying to fight the mundane and overwhelming tides of life that keep rolling in and hitting me when my back is turned.
Having readers has given me a forum of accountability, whether you comment or not. You give me a life line out of this house and this life and my head.
And please don't think I'm complaining about my life. I am blessed and I know it. Never think I don't know it. But I am a restless soul and I battle that.
How does one appreciate where they are while attempting to climb higher or learn more? If I stop moving forward, won't I automatically begin rolling backwards?
I'm not on a mission; I'm on a quest. A quest full of doubt and enlightenment, of joy and discovery and despair, of frustration and determination. Because that's what life is.
Do I have any resolutions for the New Year? No.
But I am resolved to keep moving forward, whatever way I can. Because I fear rolling backwards, of losing ground and never finding the top of this mountain. I don't know any other way, really.
As such, I hope to try new recipes for my family and for you. I plan to find creative ways for my children to enjoy their childhood. And I look forward to the numerous celebrations and holidays with those I love.
Today, we'll snack all day to keep up our strength for trash talking while we challenge each other on the wii. Tomorrow--like a good Yankee-the crock pot will be full of pork and sauerkraut (I confess, I understand the whole black eyed peas thing but we haven't completely adjusted to Southern living).
May the New Year bring you and yours contentment, adventure, love and knowledge. May it bring the same to me....